For years Artist Ricky Martin has been dogging questions when asked about his sexuality. No more wondering because Mr. martin has come out on his blog site putting questions to rest.
A few months ago I decided to write my memoirs, a project I knew was going to bring me closer to an amazing turning point in my life. From the moment I wrote the first phrase I was sure the book was the tool that was going to help me free myself from things I was carrying within me for a long time. Things that were too heavy for me to keep inside. Writing this account of my life, I got very close to my truth. And this is something worth celebrating.
For many years, there has been only one place where I am in touch with my emotions fearlessly and that's the stage. Being on stage fills my soul in many ways, almost completely. It's my vice. The music, the lights and the roar of the audience are elements that make me feel capable of anything. This rush of adrenaline is incredibly addictive. I don't ever want to stop feeling these emotions. But it is serenity that brings me to where I'm at right now. An amazing emotional place of comprehension, reflection and enlightenment. At this moment I'm feeling the same freedom I usually feel only on stage, without a doubt, I need to share.
Many people told me: "Ricky it's not important", "it's not worth it", "all the years you've worked and everything you've built will collapse", "many people in the world are not ready to accept your truth, your reality, your nature". Because all this advice came from people who I love dearly, I decided to move on with my life not sharing with the world my entire truth. Allowing myself to be seduced by fear and insecurity became a self-fulfilling prophecy of sabotage. Today I take full responsibility for my decisions and my actions.
If someone asked me today, "Ricky, what are you afraid of?" I would answer "the blood that runs through the streets of countries at war...child slavery, terrorism...the cynicism of some people in positions of power, the misinterpretation of faith." But fear of my truth? Not at all! On the contrary, It fills me with strength and courage. This is just what I need especially now that I am the father of two beautiful boys that are so full of light and who with their outlook teach me new things every day. To keep living as I did up until today would be to indirectly diminish the glow that my kids where born with. Enough is enough. This has to change. This was not supposed to happen 5 or 10 years ago, it is supposed to happen now. Today is my day, this is my time, and this is my moment.
These years in silence and reflection made me stronger and reminded me that acceptance has to come from within and that this kind of truth gives me the power to conquer emotions I didn't even know existed.
What will happen from now on? It doesn't matter. I can only focus on what's happening to me in this moment. The word "happiness" takes on a new meaning for me as of today. It has been a very intense process. Every word that I write in this letter is born out of love, acceptance, detachment and real contentment. Writing this is a solid step towards my inner peace and vital part of my evolution.
I am proud to say that I am a fortunate homosexual man. I am very blessed to be who I am.
March 22, 2010
March 17, 2010
Daisy Dooley Does Divorce
I just picked up this novel called Daisy Dooley Does Divorce by Anna Pasternak and I Am absolutely in love with it. Any chance I get from a hot bubble bath with a scented candle to going to Starbucks just to enjoy a chapter or two,I kid you not dear friends this book is never down. To sum up this book is really interesting and keeps me coming for more,The Character Daisy is an mid age women who looking for love Again after her nasty divorce....Wanting someone to fight for her through her dating and some long lost love she finds trouble. But she is still determine. Here is my favorite excerpt
"Just before eleven, after I had checked and rechecked my makeup and fluffed up my hair- again- I leaned against the front door and took some deep breaths. It was pathetic, I knew,but I felt like Cinderella. Part of me was fully aware that this was a day on loan before I returned to my drab, lonely, single life,but who in their right mind would turn down prince charming?." Daisy
"Just before eleven, after I had checked and rechecked my makeup and fluffed up my hair- again- I leaned against the front door and took some deep breaths. It was pathetic, I knew,but I felt like Cinderella. Part of me was fully aware that this was a day on loan before I returned to my drab, lonely, single life,but who in their right mind would turn down prince charming?." Daisy
February 21, 2010
February 18, 2010
The Way We Were
I can watch this classic film The Way We Were A million times and cry always at the ending as if it was my first time watching it.
-These are two people who are very much in love but can't be together because they love their principles more.
-These are two people who are very much in love but can't be together because they love their principles more.
February 17, 2010
In it for the Fame
Still in love with the Fame Monster Ms. Lady Gaga,she never ever seems to let me down with something new and with her beyond style ways. I don't know per se if I would walk out my house with a hair style like hers but it always work for her. Lives for that cheetah coat though. wonders if I should bring mines out??..Hmmmmm!!
This photo is supposed to be from her new single telephone ft. Beyonce. Yummy!!!
This photo is supposed to be from her new single telephone ft. Beyonce. Yummy!!!
February 09, 2010
Never lose an opportunity of seeing anything beautiful, for beauty is God's handwriting.
Some Photos taken by me
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